becomin a doc to serve ppl...???

During mbbs days when we are new to the profession n still in the learning stage many of used to atleast once think in their mind that we would serve the people generously…. After coming into practice I many times think about doing lots n lots of charity work…. But doing charity doesn’t come free…… I come across lots of poor ppl in my opd… some are really very poor n cant afford my opd fees… some cant afford medicines and surgeries… I try to do my level best for them… I can c them for free and even give them sample medicines… but whn it comes to surgeries I seriously get stuck about wht to do…. I recommend them to government or bmc hospitals but then even I want to operate free or at a mere 500 600 at the least, on them… but then am still new into practice and it isn’t tht am earning a real good amount where I can afford to do such charities… makes me feel guilty many a times whn I refuse a patient surgery due to their monetary constraint (and the guilt is more as most of the patients who need cataract surgeries are old and cute)…. I have to first try to secure a future for my family…. So unless n until I do that I cant spend that amt for charity… no.. no one can call me selfish…. Non medical ppl may tend to think so….. but then they too must try n understand us…. We just cant treat everyone for free…. And the situation these days is such tht if we treat one free then the word spreads and suddenly everyone wants free treatment… I conduct free checkup camps once a yr and become part of camps kept by others and at this stage I think am doing good enough for the society on my behalf…. But then the fact remains that someday I want to earn enough tht I can operate free on many needy patients and put a smile on the faces of my good OLD patients…J

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